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So /furi/ how do you deal with/cope/acknowledge/rationalize/etc. romantic rejection? specifically the "I have feelings for someone or perhaps just a small developing thing towards someone else but they feel nothing for me at all in return in the same way" type of rejection?
Everyone (mostly) will go through at least one instance where they develop some feelings towards someone; be it a college pal, coworker friend, just a random friend you made elsewhere, etc. and you find out that this other person does not share that feeling back. It's not a massive emotional let down since you weren't head over heels or anything, but, you know, it does still hurt a bit. Especially when it happens over and over. Maybe not from one day to the next, but a near 100% accurate string of rejection over years and years starts to really get to you.
I say "okay, so because of probability and I'm the only constant here, then it's because something is wrong with me, right?" too fat? too skinny? too tall? just ugly? shit personality? too scared ? too upfront ? etc. I always wonder why it never ever seems to click with anyone in both directions and how to manage my thoughts on it. It's hard to know what to think and how to stay positive about it. I guess it's cruel (and life is cruel, sure) to just throw up your arms and say "well, I'm a shit person for x,y, or z reason(s) and no one seems to like me beyond just a friend, fuck it I'll just be alone forever" but it really does get to you over many many years of the same thing happening again and again and it's a simple conclusion to reach.
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