Everything that follows is the last I have ever seen him mentioned, which is found in this old /pol/ thread here: >>3714638https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1918158441https://twitter.com/Amdualchess
according to sources
1. he was doing fine in TN and his friend relish begged him to move to texas because his two roommates left
2. spent a portion of his savings moving to tx help his friend he knew for 10 years and it was mostly fine (relish yelled and made fun of him)
3. around march he was being threatened by multiple ppl (smbody named ko_dass and others) online while on weed and caused the server nuke (apparently real cp and murder was spammed in his dms)
4. he recovered and was stable until early june then relish begin to mess with his head and pretended to be a part of floraverse (unclear) b4 leaving him alone for a week without contact
5. during that time he was targeted by 4chan groups and some kind of asylum discord that fucks with heads and got spammed murder/cp again
6. relish got the cops to send him to a mental ward after he apparently was possessed by amdusias and broke through the downstairs apartment (neighbors said it was his char barto that broke in wtf?)
7. a furry friend named "@feral__mom" begged him for 3k even tho he was mentally unstable and abandoned him after getting the money
8. mid-june he was evicted and had to move into an expensive apartment and most of his savings were depleted (4+ years of savings wasted moving to texas)
9. apparently he's back to stable but his leg and arm are injured and he can't find work or commissions. his friend relish stopped talking to him and he has no friends left (cept sum girl named zell)
That being said, Helelos burned a lot of bridges during what seemed to be an extended psychotic episode. This information is likely stretching the truth or outright lies. He never did apologize to the friends he hurt, including me. Apparently everyone was suddenly a "Nazi pedo rapist".
There's a lot more to this. Maybe someone else will chime in.
dont post his stupid ass artwork or he will get offended and sue us or some shit
Helelos hasn't been a mod here since the board got upgraded.
It's telling that you're the one who chose to reply.
>"There were clear boundaries between where real and fictional characters were represented in the brains of the least lonely participant in our study," Wagner said. "But the boundaries between real and some fictional people were nearly nonexistent for the loneliest participant."
Prior to being evicted, Helelos did a home invasion on the apartment below him, trying to find "Zall". He broke through their window, which is probably why he's injured.
He was also hanging up banners of his character on the outside of the apartment building, which had people googling and asking his Twitter mutuals what was going on.
Congrats, keep it up.
As a schizophrenic myself, I know how absolutely devastating THC and other drugs can be on the mental health of people like me. I've been sober 3 years now from THC and alcohol. Helelos, if you're reading this, please wake up from this nightmare and admit you need help. Even just sobering up will help.
Awww, thank you for your encouragement. It might not seem like much but any little acknowledgement of my progress just motivates me to work even hard toward my sobriety. My ultimate goal is to reach 1 entire year sober.
I worry about Helelos too… he really needs to check himself into a rehab center or something so he can get cleaned up if he's still using drugs.
Here's the rest:
grabbing my doxx shit on [redacted] who abused me in my sleep while I roomed with him.
The snake friend Nick I don't have doxx on but you can get it by tricking the dipshit pedo mom [redacted] by saying you are Stevie's friend and need Nick's number.
Stevie needs to get crushed and Kazerad/Nick's business (Prequel Comics) I want gone for good (I want this, not requesting it)
After tonight I'm done with irl dox shit.
if I ever hurt a single innocent person I fully agree to having my info doxxed and my shit stolen.
[redacted Google Maps link]
[redacted] is their main source of income.
I lived in rooms in the top.
The brother-in-law is a cop who targets people of color on drugs to send to jail, then they group beat them and sell the footage for profit
The rest I don't give a shit about. Stevie's gotta go.
He's obsessed with kids so I'm certain he abuses them.
Sorry for being sloppy about this
I wish these stupid fascists who hurt kids would DISAPPEAR.
I am posting a public statement about this to further smear his ass across the pavement bloody and crying.https://www.prequeladventure.com/
I want his site erased.
That alone will send a message to his white power allies that I will not let him stay in power.
My evil has been spoken, thank you for reading.
Helelos conspires against people he perceives as being more successful than him. That's all it takes. He doesn't even have to meet you personally to seek your destruction.
He was plotting against the Hazbin Hotel clique awhile back. Retardedly jealous and wrathful.
>>3727435>Helelos conspires against people he perceives as being more successful than him. That's all it takes. He doesn't even have to meet you personally to seek your destruction.
Kaz here (Nick from the above story).
I don't think it's popularity, I think Hel just really, really doesn't understand scale. He moved in with a close friend of mine (Stevie) for a few years, but his schizophrenia started to worsen and he came completely convinced that being asked to pay $300 in rent was extortion. I tried to explain to him that $300 a month was a really good price, and show him websites explaining the average rent in different areas. This just convinced him that I had immense amounts of influence and was able to make every website on the internet lie about how much housing costs.
After I lost contact with him I briefly joined a group of his friends who were trying to track down what happened to him and if he was okay. I was kinda rattled to find out that a lot of the people he had ranted to me about as if they were huge and influential bullies committed to being a thorn in his side were like… literal children, 18-19 years old. Most of them just worried about him like I was.
I don't know where Hel is now. Last I heard he was just kinda ambiguously somewhere in Texas, and his roommate got him evicted after he started telling people said roommate was a cartel boss and asking them to come kill him.
It's a really sad situation. >>3718453
make sure you have a network of people you trust who can intervene if things ever get really bad.
>>3727483> Last I heard he was just kinda ambiguously somewhere in Texas
If he is still there his friends might try to guide him to some mental heath care.https://www.hhs.texas.gov/services/mental-health-substance-use
I used to be friends with him and I feel we were close, then we drifted apart. I still think about you, Helelos, and I hope you're alright.
Helelos' default mode is enraged jealousy. He goes after content creators out of envy. Don't think if the schizophrenia was removed he'd somehow be a better person.
His attacks on people require moral cover, which is why he's doing the antifa nonsense and claiming you're a Nazi.
You deserve better, Kaz, but I disagree with your charitable take.
>>3727811>Don't think if the schizophrenia was removed he'd somehow be a better person.
It works backwards. Your brain hallucinates stuff and generates random emotions and associations, and your mind comes up with rationalizations for why these random hallucinations make sense. Psychosis is the point where you stop recognizing which thoughts and ideas are intentional, and which are just noise.
If the person is feeling paranoid, THAT causes them to come up with conspiracy theories that explain why they SHOULD be paranoid. If they randomly associate someone to be a nazi, they come up with theories and make up facts to explain to themselves why this is true.
It's all to do with ego self-preservation, because you need to have a consistent self-narrative to feel that you even exist. If for example your hand was randomly grabbing objects, you wouldn't feel that is you doing it. Likewise, if there's these random thoughts popping into your head, it doesn't feel like you are thinking them, unless you can somehow explain away these random actions as YOUR actions
some nazis are secretly kkk members. conspiracy much or doody on the brain?
>>3727811>You deserve better, Kaz, but I disagree with your charitable take.
His constant angling for moral superiority and the nazi conspiracy stuff didn't come about until late-stage Hel though, when he switched from the bird fursona to the wolf. His housemate at the time was my best friend, which meant I got a lot of details on his slow descent. By the time he got kicked out, he was in constant conversation with people who weren't there and drawing runes all over everything.
Kind of like >>3727815
was getting at, he basically just lost the ability to recognize when he was wrong. Like, to use the rent thing as an example, some part of Hel "knew" with complete certainty that $300 was an outlandish price for rent. This felt so true to him that when I showed him evidence that it was a good price, it was easier for him to believe I had the will and ability to modify every website on the internet simply to demoralize him than to believe that he was wrong. It's a very small jump to get from "I'm logically correct about everything" to "I'm morally correct about everything", and when everyone tells you you're wrong and even the police are taking their side, it's easy to feel like there's a massive conspiracy at play.
Even among normal people, "truth" is a feeling you have separate to any argument supporting said truth. It's a label that is emotionally ascribed to facts or associations.
This is why you can have dreams where you think "Reality is the smell of burnt almonds", and it makes sense. The moment you wake up, that association is gone and no longer makes any sense. If you're having a psychosis and your brain maintains this association for any reason, you have the inclination to come up with a narrative to explain why this is so, because you already accept is as true and real - everything else has to conform to your sense of real.
>>3727882> It's a very small jump to get from "I'm logically correct about everything" to "I'm morally correct about everything"
That's also a feature of autism. In it, a person has problems separating their own self and their own ideas from the thoughts of others, because they lack or are severely impaired in what's called a "theory of other minds".
In other words, such a person can only maintain one mind at a time, not accounting for different points of view. It creates the illusion that facts or opinions should be shared by everyone else, and if not then the other people are either stupid or being intentionally deceptive because they should know the "truth" that you know.
A person who is both autistic an schizophrenic is at a double jeopardy of not even being able to comprehend when their thoughts are getting distorted - but a person who is merely autistic can also develop these obsessive ideas about things that "should be so". See e.g. Greta Thunberg.
imo people are largely emotional creatures first and logical creatures second. If you feel strongly about something emotionally, the mind will make up some bs to make logical connections to support the emotional basis.
You don't have to be autistic or schitzo to do it, its just they do it way more aggressively, and with way less self awareness than… well, I'd say the normal dude, but what is normal anymore?
You know, we could just fan fic that shit, and make our own Katia story line.
Make some shit up, I guarantee you at the very least I will stare at you menacingly as my best mudcrab.
I will 1hp you to death you m**sh5*4r You think your fireballs will stop my mudcrab powers while I'm masturbating mentally in a bathtub. Just try it you magic battery bitch-
This all makes good sense because as far as I understand this is basically how the human mind works anyway; our actions and impulses are actually governed by the unconscious part of our brain and our conscious mind only rationalizes explanations for them afterwards. This would perfectly explain why we all get weird, dark, and sometimes violent split-second impulses that we simply don't act on. For me, they feel like I had a terribly bad idea that I think better of within the span of milliseconds. I read an article a long time ago that said the generally assumed idea that we're constantly receiving input from all our senses and then making our own conscious response to it is, unnervingly, a misconception. If I recall correctly, this is the basis of why some scientists and scholars don't believe in free will.>>3727962
Kazerad I had to chuckle at this since I remember your story of how badly it goes when you try to turn this complaint back on the complainant.
nah you always were all a bunch of tiny cunty faggots and u kno it
Helelos's future is bleak and short. He's being mentally eviscerated by his demons.
He wasted every friendship, every opportunity, every moment of grace by his cruel and hateful nature. He schemed against others for no reason other than envy.
Burn in hell you autistic faggot.
>>3728687> I had also forgotten that he tried to get sober while we were involved, and I think that somehow made his condition worse?
Maybe, it's also possible he knew his mental condition was deteriorating and hoped that would help.