a69299c5 No.3717337
Everything that follows is the last I have ever seen him mentioned, which is found in this old /pol/ thread here: >>3714638
https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1918158441https://twitter.com/Amdualchessaccording to sources
1. he was doing fine in TN and his friend relish begged him to move to texas because his two roommates left
2. spent a portion of his savings moving to tx help his friend he knew for 10 years and it was mostly fine (relish yelled and made fun of him)
3. around march he was being threatened by multiple ppl (smbody named ko_dass and others) online while on weed and caused the server nuke (apparently real cp and murder was spammed in his dms)
4. he recovered and was stable until early june then relish begin to mess with his head and pretended to be a part of floraverse (unclear) b4 leaving him alone for a week without contact
5. during that time he was targeted by 4chan groups and some kind of asylum discord that fucks with heads and got spammed murder/cp again
6. relish got the cops to send him to a mental ward after he apparently was possessed by amdusias and broke through the downstairs apartment (neighbors said it was his char barto that broke in wtf?)
7. a furry friend named "@feral__mom" begged him for 3k even tho he was mentally unstable and abandoned him after getting the money
8. mid-june he was evicted and had to move into an expensive apartment and most of his savings were depleted (4+ years of savings wasted moving to texas)
9. apparently he's back to stable but his leg and arm are injured and he can't find work or commissions. his friend relish stopped talking to him and he has no friends left (cept sum girl named zell)
a69299c5 No.3717342
That being said, Helelos burned a lot of bridges during what seemed to be an extended psychotic episode. This information is likely stretching the truth or outright lies. He never did apologize to the friends he hurt, including me. Apparently everyone was suddenly a "Nazi pedo rapist".
There's a lot more to this. Maybe someone else will chime in.
7f113ab6 No.3717381
dont post his stupid ass artwork or he will get offended and sue us or some shit
a69299c5 No.3717428
>>3717425
Helelos hasn't been a mod here since the board got upgraded.
e200aeb3 No.3717478
>>3717425
It's telling that you're the one who chose to reply.
>"There were clear boundaries between where real and fictional characters were represented in the brains of the least lonely participant in our study," Wagner said. "But the boundaries between real and some fictional people were nearly nonexistent for the loneliest participant."
a978a637 No.3718101
Prior to being evicted, Helelos did a home invasion on the apartment below him, trying to find "Zall". He broke through their window, which is probably why he's injured.
He was also hanging up banners of his character on the outside of the apartment building, which had people googling and asking his Twitter mutuals what was going on.
a69299c5 No.3718453
>>3718421Congrats, keep it up.
As a schizophrenic myself, I know how absolutely devastating THC and other drugs can be on the mental health of people like me. I've been sober 3 years now from THC and alcohol. Helelos, if you're reading this, please wake up from this nightmare and admit you need help. Even just sobering up will help.
50a399c0 No.3718496
>>3718453Awww, thank you for your encouragement. It might not seem like much but any little acknowledgement of my progress just motivates me to work even hard toward my sobriety. My ultimate goal is to reach 1 entire year sober.
I worry about Helelos too… he really needs to check himself into a rehab center or something so he can get cleaned up if he's still using drugs.
a69299c5 No.3727425
Here's the rest:grabbing my doxx shit on [redacted] who abused me in my sleep while I roomed with him.
The snake friend Nick I don't have doxx on but you can get it by tricking the dipshit pedo mom [redacted] by saying you are Stevie's friend and need Nick's number.
Stevie needs to get crushed and Kazerad/Nick's business (Prequel Comics) I want gone for good (I want this, not requesting it)
After tonight I'm done with irl dox shit.
if I ever hurt a single innocent person I fully agree to having my info doxxed and my shit stolen.
[redacted Google Maps link]
[redacted] is their main source of income.
I lived in rooms in the top.
The brother-in-law is a cop who targets people of color on drugs to send to jail, then they group beat them and sell the footage for profit
The rest I don't give a shit about. Stevie's gotta go.
He's obsessed with kids so I'm certain he abuses them.
Sorry for being sloppy about this
I wish these stupid fascists who hurt kids would DISAPPEAR.
I am posting a public statement about this to further smear his ass across the pavement bloody and crying.
https://www.prequeladventure.com/I want his site erased.
That alone will send a message to his white power allies that I will not let him stay in power.
My evil has been spoken, thank you for reading.
a978a637 No.3727435
Helelos conspires against people he perceives as being more successful than him. That's all it takes. He doesn't even have to meet you personally to seek your destruction.
He was plotting against the Hazbin Hotel clique awhile back. Retardedly jealous and wrathful.
2d593b4e No.3727483
>>3727435>Helelos conspires against people he perceives as being more successful than him. That's all it takes. He doesn't even have to meet you personally to seek your destruction. Kaz here (Nick from the above story).
I don't think it's popularity, I think Hel just really, really doesn't understand scale. He moved in with a close friend of mine (Stevie) for a few years, but his schizophrenia started to worsen and he came completely convinced that being asked to pay $300 in rent was extortion. I tried to explain to him that $300 a month was a really good price, and show him websites explaining the average rent in different areas. This just convinced him that I had immense amounts of influence and was able to make every website on the internet lie about how much housing costs.
After I lost contact with him I briefly joined a group of his friends who were trying to track down what happened to him and if he was okay. I was kinda rattled to find out that a lot of the people he had ranted to me about as if they were huge and influential bullies committed to being a thorn in his side were like… literal children, 18-19 years old. Most of them just worried about him like I was.
I don't know where Hel is now. Last I heard he was just kinda ambiguously somewhere in Texas, and his roommate got him evicted after he started telling people said roommate was a cartel boss and asking them to come kill him.
It's a really sad situation.
>>3718453 make sure you have a network of people you trust who can intervene if things ever get really bad.
1d4886ac No.3727504
>>3727483> Last I heard he was just kinda ambiguously somewhere in TexasIf he is still there his friends might try to guide him to some mental heath care.
https://www.hhs.texas.gov/services/mental-health-substance-use 3a6085d6 No.3727759
I used to be friends with him and I feel we were close, then we drifted apart. I still think about you, Helelos, and I hope you're alright.
9f3b33ce No.3727811
>>3727483Helelos' default mode is enraged jealousy. He goes after content creators out of envy. Don't think if the schizophrenia was removed he'd somehow be a better person.
His attacks on people require moral cover, which is why he's doing the antifa nonsense and claiming you're a Nazi.
You deserve better, Kaz, but I disagree with your charitable take.
5f80414d No.3727815
>>3727811>Don't think if the schizophrenia was removed he'd somehow be a better person. It works backwards. Your brain hallucinates stuff and generates random emotions and associations, and your mind comes up with rationalizations for why these random hallucinations make sense. Psychosis is the point where you stop recognizing which thoughts and ideas are intentional, and which are just noise.
If the person is feeling paranoid, THAT causes them to come up with conspiracy theories that explain why they SHOULD be paranoid. If they randomly associate someone to be a nazi, they come up with theories and make up facts to explain to themselves why this is true.
It's all to do with ego self-preservation, because you need to have a consistent self-narrative to feel that you even exist. If for example your hand was randomly grabbing objects, you wouldn't feel that is you doing it. Likewise, if there's these random thoughts popping into your head, it doesn't feel like you are thinking them, unless you can somehow explain away these random actions as YOUR actions
2f83f1fa No.3727828
>>3727815some nazis are secretly kkk members. conspiracy much or doody on the brain?
19a18b0b No.3727882
>>3727811>You deserve better, Kaz, but I disagree with your charitable take.His constant angling for moral superiority and the nazi conspiracy stuff didn't come about until late-stage Hel though, when he switched from the bird fursona to the wolf. His housemate at the time was my best friend, which meant I got a lot of details on his slow descent. By the time he got kicked out, he was in constant conversation with people who weren't there and drawing runes all over everything.
Kind of like
>>3727815 was getting at, he basically just lost the ability to recognize when he was wrong. Like, to use the rent thing as an example, some part of Hel "knew" with complete certainty that $300 was an outlandish price for rent. This felt so true to him that when I showed him evidence that it was a good price, it was easier for him to believe I had the will and ability to modify every website on the internet simply to demoralize him than to believe that he was wrong. It's a very small jump to get from "I'm logically correct about everything" to "I'm morally correct about everything", and when everyone tells you you're wrong and even the police are taking their side, it's easy to feel like there's a massive conspiracy at play.
5f80414d No.3727883
>>3727828Even among normal people, "truth" is a feeling you have separate to any argument supporting said truth. It's a label that is emotionally ascribed to facts or associations.
This is why you can have dreams where you think "Reality is the smell of burnt almonds", and it makes sense. The moment you wake up, that association is gone and no longer makes any sense. If you're having a psychosis and your brain maintains this association for any reason, you have the inclination to come up with a narrative to explain why this is so, because you already accept is as true and real - everything else has to conform to your sense of real.
5f80414d No.3727884
>>3727882> It's a very small jump to get from "I'm logically correct about everything" to "I'm morally correct about everything"That's also a feature of autism. In it, a person has problems separating their own self and their own ideas from the thoughts of others, because they lack or are severely impaired in what's called a "theory of other minds".
In other words, such a person can only maintain one mind at a time, not accounting for different points of view. It creates the illusion that facts or opinions should be shared by everyone else, and if not then the other people are either stupid or being intentionally deceptive because they should know the "truth" that you know.
A person who is both autistic an schizophrenic is at a double jeopardy of not even being able to comprehend when their thoughts are getting distorted - but a person who is merely autistic can also develop these obsessive ideas about things that "should be so". See e.g. Greta Thunberg.
2b705138 No.3727941
>>3727884imo people are largely emotional creatures first and logical creatures second. If you feel strongly about something emotionally, the mind will make up some bs to make logical connections to support the emotional basis.
You don't have to be autistic or schitzo to do it, its just they do it way more aggressively, and with way less self awareness than… well, I'd say the normal dude, but what is normal anymore?
2b705138 No.3727964
>>3727962You know, we could just fan fic that shit, and make our own Katia story line.
Make some shit up, I guarantee you at the very least I will stare at you menacingly as my best mudcrab.
I will 1hp you to death you m**sh5*4r You think your fireballs will stop my mudcrab powers while I'm masturbating mentally in a bathtub. Just try it you magic battery bitch-
4c83f182 No.3727968
>>3727815>>3727883>>3727884This all makes good sense because as far as I understand this is basically how the human mind works anyway; our actions and impulses are actually governed by the unconscious part of our brain and our conscious mind only rationalizes explanations for them afterwards. This would perfectly explain why we all get weird, dark, and sometimes violent split-second impulses that we simply don't act on. For me, they feel like I had a terribly bad idea that I think better of within the span of milliseconds. I read an article a long time ago that said the generally assumed idea that we're constantly receiving input from all our senses and then making our own conscious response to it is, unnervingly, a misconception. If I recall correctly, this is the basis of why some scientists and scholars don't believe in free will.
>>3727962Kazerad I had to chuckle at this since I remember your story of how badly it goes when you try to turn this complaint back on the complainant.
2f83f1fa No.3728574
>>3728477nah you always were all a bunch of tiny cunty faggots and u kno it
be52ffbb No.3728673
Helelos's future is bleak and short. He's being mentally eviscerated by his demons.
He wasted every friendship, every opportunity, every moment of grace by his cruel and hateful nature. He schemed against others for no reason other than envy.
Burn in hell you autistic faggot.
0a5f124f No.3728689
>>3728687> I had also forgotten that he tried to get sober while we were involved, and I think that somehow made his condition worse?Maybe, it's also possible he knew his mental condition was deteriorating and hoped that would help.
1062dbfb No.3733789
>>3728690This is a thread about Helelos! Not that deranged lunatic terrorist Circus Fox! I demand the staff remove that post immediately.
It is irritating irrelevant and erroneous shit posting.
This intrusion on an otherwise constructive thread is not appreciated anon.
efc90d7f No.3733792
>>3733789Aufy isn't a terrorist. More like a deranged Karen who smears her own shit over depictions of nudity at an art exhibit. Think of the children!
626cbd7e No.3733793
>>3733792aufy is a terrorist in the way that a teenager script kiddy is a terrorist. He does way more damage than he intends.
Im still surprised that he didn't get in trouble with the law the time that he juggled that roommate's mom's tits.
I mean, I've driven without a seatbelt a whole of 30 seconds in my life, and I got a ticket for it.
626cbd7e No.3733795
hell I've been arrested back in high school for stealing my own pencil back from a bitch math tutor.
I mean, I didn't get any charges, but still far less than what Aufy gets away with on a regular basis.
626cbd7e No.3733796
>>3733795but to be fair, I only got mad and snatched it back from her because it was a Kuru Toga rotary pencil. I spent a lot of lunch money on that thing, it wasn't like some plastic pencil.
She took it from me because she was supposed to be tutoring me in trig, and she was making me work on a kindergarten 1+1=2 book. Then I said this sucks, and she was like "thats filthy talk," so I was like "ok this blows," then she got more mad and I was like "ok this sucks a huge cock and you suck clits because you can't keep a man if you wanted to."
So she took my pencil and called my mom.
626cbd7e No.3733797
then the police showed up and I got arrested for stealing my own pencil, and assault, because I touched the tutor's hand when I took it back.
0b1eb06a No.3733808
>>3733800
In that case your libido needs to classified as a medical emergency
69b92037 No.3733855
>>3733800
At this point I'm convinced that Steam is an AI.
3fbd47cb No.3733859
>>3728547https://
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626cbd7e No.3734730
>>3734725Its kind of ironic, I gave him a very lucrative contract when he graduated art school, he turned it down. Looks like he stole my thing.
adc63377 No.3736894
>>3736893I do have a history of dating transexuals (and kicking Canadians out of M'rka) but when they start talking about ovulation and estrus, I tend to just jump ship.
There is a level.
e6554737 No.3736898
>>3736897You're a tranny, huh? That must be a struggle.
adc63377 No.3736899
>>3736898I am not, I'm perfectly happy being a male, I just wanted to have the experience.
I like my dick. I don't have boobs, and I don't want them.
I just enjoy a set of sensitive nips, and a healthy enthusiasm for anal penetration.
Other than that I'm 100% d00d.
adc63377 No.3736902
>>3736901That said, estrogen really does feel awesome, and its not like I want to use my mammary glands anyways….
I don't want to be a girl, but the fringe benefits are nice…
adc63377 No.3736904
still not trans, I just like having girl nipples
e87995ec No.3736907
Steam is trans. Might as well crack that egg. It's going to be ugly as fuck, but society rewards that now so why not?
adc63377 No.3736917
>>3736907>why notI can have sensitive perky nips, enjoy scented baths, and prefer lady grey tea over earl grey, and not want to be a girl at the same time.
Just because you're curious, or you like feminine things doesn't make you trans.
adc63377 No.3736920
In any case, in order to be trans, I'd need to be transitioning. And as everyone knows, I'm basically stuck at a fixed point in time. I don't take kindly to fancy things like "change."
7763948f No.3737346
>>3736892It's sad to see this happening to him. I used to play games with him and we would laugh and have fun.
